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Recovery

• Expectation: I feel a little bit better today!
• Expectation: I feel a little bit better today!
• Expectation: I feel a little bit better today!
• Expectation: Hey, I think I feel pretty good!
• Expectation: I guess that means I'm normal now! Time to go live a normal life!
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• Reality: I feel terrible.
• Reality: I still feel terrible.
• Reality: Is this seriously "recovery?" This sucks.
• Reality: I don't want to be thinking about all of this shit, this is exhausting.
• Reality: I guess today's not so bad.
• Reality: Today is bad again.
• Reality: Today is bad, but I think I'm starting to understand why.
• Reality: Wow, how long has it been since I cleaned my room?
• Reality: Cleaning my room didn't make me feel any better, but hey, room's clean.
• Reality: Whoa, okay, I need a shower. And maybe a haircut? Definitely a haircut.
• Reality: Everything sucks.
• Reality: Okay, except you.
• Reality: And you too, I didn't mean that you sucked.
• Reality: And that thing that I like is pretty cool.
• Reality: What was I talking about?
• Reality: Oh, THAT'S why my ex broke up with me.
• Reality: Wow, it turns out that was totally my fault?
• Reality: I was the jackass.
• Reality: Holy shit, I am such a jackass.
• Reality: Everybody must hate me.
• Reality: EVERYBODY HATES ME.
• Reality: Okay, how could everybody hate me? I mean, even if I'm a jackass, the Law of Averages dictates that SOMEBODY out there would probably like me anyway.
• Reality: Why would everybody hate me anyway, I'm awesome.
• Reality: ...I'm not that awesome.
• Reality: Sometimes I'm pretty awesome, though.
• Reality: OH MY GOD I HATE MYSELF
• Reality: WHAT IS THIS, I'M RIGHT BACK WHERE I STARTED
• Reality: EVERYTHING SUCKS, THE WORLD SUCKS, I SUCK, NOBODY WILL EVER LOVE ME AND I WILL DIE UNMOURNED AND ALONE
• Reality: ...What the hell was that about?
• Reality: Anyway, gonna get stuff done.
• Reality: Gonna get stuff done
• Reality: Getting stuff done
• Reality: WHY DO I FAIL AT EVERYTHING
• Reality: WALLOWING
• Reality: WALLOWING SOME MORE
• Reality: Okay NO MORE WALLOWING, we've talked about this, we're not doing this right now.
• Reality: ...I can't believe that worked.
• Reality: Huh.
• Reality: So hang on, is this it?
• Reality: I mean, is this recovery? Am I doing this right? Is it going to be over soon?
• Reality: I just want to be normal.
• Reality: I am such a ridiculous trainwreck of a human being. How do I even exist? Why do I get to have friends? Why do you people talk to me? There's so much about myself that I really don't like, and there's probably even more stuff that I don't even know about that isn't too hot, either. And I'm working on it, but man, it's hard.
• Reality: ...I just realized that everything I just said is normal.
• Reality: Oh my God, am I already normal?
• Reality: I'M ALREADY NORMAL. THIS IS NORMAL.
• Reality: It's...not exactly everything I was hoping for, to tell you the truth.
• Reality: ...Oh well.
• Reality: Today was okay.
• Reality: Maybe tomorrow will be better.